Simply means lack of meet up with friends.

I miss all my friends!!

I LOVE TUMBLR! Someday this is going to be a replica of my tumblr blog. If life continues to get boring. HELLO FRIENDS; WE NEED TO MEET UP! :(

You can visit my tumblr at http://tumblr.anna.my :)) I don’t usually repost those I reblog on tumblr on my personal blog. So you’ll still see fresh things here and there! :D

I feel damn anti-social like all of a sudden. Haven’t met friends for super long. Everyone’s busy, when I’m free. and when I’m busy, everyone seems to be free.

I don’t want to stop feeling like this.

The hardest part is always executing. Action speaks louder than words.

If I could rewind time, I’d go back to March, days after we’re done with our final papers. Start from there, and re-play everything that happened then. The JB stayover @ my place, then my Germany trip, then Bangkok shopping trip with girlies, pause and stop there. March was the best month of my year for now.

If only..

For now, I’ll be grateful enough if all my emo thoughts get flown away from me like all these balloons.

But I’m home, waiting for daddy to come home before we head out for dinner.

I was contemplating whether to go for a badminton game with cousins, or to join my parents for dinner. & Mommy convinced me to stay. HAHA. The date today is the 23rd July. In less than a month’s time, school is going to start, and judging the way I’m going to arrange my timetable, I’m pretty sure I’ll never be able to be back on time on Fridays to have dinner with my parents anymore.

I think alot, huh?

Its ironic how I don’t fail to complain how boring life is currently, and I know that once school starts, I’ll start missing such carefree and stress-free lives; where I can have breakfast with parents early in the morning, and go back home to sleep. Haaa.

I don’t think we can have the best of both worlds, do we? Humans are never perfect, lest to say, our lives. Its more about living your imperfect lives to the most perfect way..I guess.

Full of reflective thoughts.

So guys, if you’ve come to a point of realization like me, take some time off, and have a meal with your family! ;) All it takes is a an hour or two, probably during the weekends. Its never too late to show you care. :)

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*Digress abit*

Jay Chou is featured everywhere, on the newspapers, on magazines!! Haha. While some auntie was flipping her newspaper on the MRT just now, I caught a glimpse of Jay’s news! Hahahaha!

& I bought this week’s issue of i-weekly with Jay Chou being featured inside. How I wished it was all in English. But for him, I’ll read it all! :D:D

Its a Jay Chou week over here in Singapore afterall, so its also not suprising to see him all over. Haha!

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Anyway, back to arranging timetable for school, its giving me a headache! Thank goodness I’m comforted that it gets easier as the semesters goes by.

I can’t really adapt to the change from polytechnic to university life.

In polytechnic, we’re given a timetable, and just one whole range of electives for you to choose from.

Now in NUS, we’re only given our cores, and a zillion DIFFERENT kinds of electives to choose from, within or out of your faculty.

Confusing much?

I am so not used to it.

Someone remind me that it’ll be worth it in the end, please?

I really hope uni life is going to be enriching and manageable for me. I’m very paranoid about everything.

Goodness! I just needed this PUNCH! :] "Get ready for the time of your life*

This is comforting too! :DD

Because it’ll all be okay in the end. :)

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I’m missing my long tresses like crazy. I feel totally ugly with my current hair! The length just feels neither here nor there. =’

Dearest darling hair, will you please please please grow faster? ;) Please be healthy too!

With loveeeeee, xoxo.

According to the Land Transport Authority (LTA);

A majority of commuters will benefit from Distance Fares, with 2 in 3 seeing a reduction or no change in their weekly public transport expenditure.

So.. What say you?

Unfortunately, to my misfortune, I have to say I’m probably the 1 in 3 that is not benefiting from this new scheme! Boooooooo!

For instance, (if you follow me on twitter @iamannaker) I’ve tweeted before that my usual transport fees of $1 have increased to $1.40 now, when travelling from Malaysia customs to Kranji.

Other than that, I’ve been looking into my transport fares whenever I travel, and I’m really paying more for majority of the times I’m travelling! Its not that I remember how much it costed last time, but on the back of my mind, I can roughly gauge the figures.

Meaning more allowance used for transport. THIS REALLY SUCKS.

Along side, I hear about complains with regards to this new transport scheme from friends around, and actually none of them actually mentioned they benefitted. Does that mean my friends and I are all that unlucky to be the 1/3 of the population who uses public transport?

Actually, if you think logically.. In my opinion, if SMRT don’t earn more money using this pay by distance scheme, why did they bother changing the scheme?

15th of July is finally OVER! Its a date that’s bookmarked on my phone calendar since eons ago..

I can’t reiterate how worried I was about this silly QET test, and no matter what is the outcome, I’m glad its over.

Its feels as if a rock (that weighs a 100 tonnes) is off my chest. I can finally breathe at ease, enjoy myself guilt-free. The few days before the test was a terror. Knowing my usual self, I really couldn’t help but procrastinate till the last minute. Urghhhhhh. Totally hates myself for that. BUTTTT. Its alright, everything’s over, and I’ll resign to ‘fate’ to decide. HAHA. Oookay, my senior asked me to *have faith*!!

Life’s easier and happier like that, isn’t it?

:))

I’m in an awesome mood nowwwwwwwwwww.

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ANYWAYYYYY.

YESTERDAYYYYYY, I caught a movieeee (feeling totally guilty!!) with Suet Yin and Nic!!! SUPER LOVE THEMMM FOR WATCHING KARATE KID WITH ME AGAIN!! Yes, Karate Kid. I know I’m slower than anything. But hey, there were like 3 rows of people in the theatres too okay. So at least 3 rows of people as slow as me. 

It was really a good catch! & I’m so super duper glad I caught it at the very last minutee! Because even the cinemas in JB are not showing it anymore.. Mommy’s gonna be so disappointed.

AWESOME MOVIEEEE.

I’d give it a 4.5/5 stars..

It was so touching, the part where Jackie Chan was reminiscing about his wife and son. Oh my! :(

& Extremely heart wrenching when the super evil and arrogant coach wanted to break Dre’s legs. Ouchhhhh. I feel for him! :(

AIYAAA.

Definitely worth the watch. But if you missed it, wait for the DVDs to come out and watch it at home, I guess? :))

But at the same time, I missed a few pretty good movies too.

• The legend is born: Ip Man
• Toy Story 3
• The Backup Plan
• Triple Tap
• She’s out of my league
• The A-Team

Omg I feel super demoralised and depressed. 

I missed out so many great movies. And my only chance to catch two out of the six here is tomorrow. I found out one cinema in JB that’s still showing a single slot of Triple Tap and The Backup Plan, tomorrow. Sighhh. The other 4, its either I manage to catch them last minute like how I caught Karate Kid, or I’ll never watch them. Sad ttm.

I’m so going to catch the movies I wanna watch before they are removed from the screens again! :((

No matter how lousy Eclipse: The Twilight Saga was said to be, I think I’m still going to watch it. HAHA.

I wanna catch Eclipse, Despicable me, Inception, Street dance for now.

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And…in no time, it’ll be time for school!

I’m having mixed feelings about school.

At times, I can’t wait for it to start because my boredness is really filled to the brim. But on other occassions, I wished I had more time, to have fun, watch movies, go K with friends, meet up with friends, go partyyyyy, etc. But then again, it will become boring again.

Okay I shall anticipate the start of school :) I wonder how university life is going to be like, for me..

No one says its going to be easy.

But at least, its going to be worth it. (:

This is how I feel, exactly, right now.

#`1,

I really want to go for the Science Orientation Week! But so far I’ve not gotten any replies from the organising committee. :( I really hope I get a response soon!

#`2,

I’ve got a qualifying english test (QET) to go for this Thursday. It feels extremely weird. I haven’t written a proper essay since, say, Secondary 4 O’levels? Poly don’t make us write essays. We write reports. And what, we have to write something like an argumentative essay for the test.

I’m really afraid. I cant even hold a pen properly now after not doing so for a good 4 months at least. HAHA.

SOOO, LADY LUCK, I need you to be by my side these few days.

Lots of love;
XOXO,

Anna.

For one, I left camp early before they officially break camp. (But I really hated doing that! ): )

Secondly, I officially have a place to stay, permanently, in Singapore. Hip hip hurrrayyyyeeee! :D

Thirdly, it was my first time stepping into Singapore Indoor Stadium!! I think its really my first. So mountain turtle..

(:

I attended the F.I.R. Its my life 2010 World Tour @ the Indoor Stadium YESTERDAY! :]]]

I have to admit some of their songs are really pretty awful. No offence to any F.I.R. hardcore fans! My apologies, let me put it this way, I really don’t know how to appreciate some of their songs.

But their older songs like 我们的爱，千年之戀，月牙灣, Lydia etc. are realllllly nice!

Anyway, their special guest was Steffanie Sun. I absolutely love her LIVE singing. POWER vocals!!! Really impressed. She was also very very very PRETTY. With minimal make up, compared to Faye (oppps), she looked really gorgeous! :D

I’ll continue the entry with photos later in the day!! :]] I gotta get my ass going to prepare for Singapore Blog Awards laterrrrrrrrr! :D #SBA2010

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EVERYONE exclaimed how tanned I am. I’m reallllly sad. :(

Sometimes when I decide on things, I really weigh the pros and cons. Whether it’ll be worth it, or not.

Of course, you’ll never know if its worth it, until you’ve done it. So ironically, its always hard to make decisions.

I feel that I’ve truly drifted away. But I know I’m not the only one.

Haven’t checked out that space for ages, and once I did, I felt a tinge of disappointment.

Was it only my fault? Or everyone have got their part to play?

At times I felt I’ve tried my best, gave what I could.

What about the others?

I could feel the distance, but what can I, alone, do?

Efforts, efforts. where are you?

But I know there are some whom’ll always be there. :)

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I don’t want my mood to be dampened. After I’ve written my thoughts, I want to be happy again!

Pretty flowers make me happyyyyyy.

So how well do you think you can read me?

But I’ve to admit I’m not easily readable.

Laughter, the BEST MEDICINE!

I can't emphasize more!

Thank you Tumblr, for being such a wonderful source for all these awesome pretty little photos. :) I ♥ Tumblr!

P.S.: You guys can visit my Tumblr! by pressing Tumblr! on the header! :D:D:D

I don’t think any words could even describe how I feel at that instance. Even ‘utterly disappointed’ would be an understatement towards how I felt.

I had been pinning high hopes of performing a vision correction surgery– LASIK for years, since I was in polytechnic. I thought my wait was finally over. Because the transition period between university and after I graduate was a good time, to allow me to go for the surgery, as well as to have a good rest after that.

Been busy for the past two months since examinations ended and finally finally, dearest mommy brought me to the clinic for a check up.

My optician starting with a general eye check using a machine, the one where we could see a parachute (I have no idea if it’s the same anywhere else for instance in Singapore, because that’s what I’ve been seeing for the past years).  He commented that my astigmatism increased again. My heart skipped a beat.

Previous attempts when I consulted him for ordinary eye checks, he was also pretty concerned about my astigmatism as they had been increasing almost every time I check my eyes. He told me about a condition – keratoconus, where the cornea is cone-shaped and causes extreme visual distortion. And because of that, patients with this condition can never perform a LASIK operation.

Just FYI, Keratoconus is a progressive eye disease in which the normally round cornea thins and begins to bulge into a cone-like shape. This cone shape deflects light as it enters the eye on its way to the light-sensitive retina, causing distorted vision.

Fine, after which, it was a manual eye check where he tests my eye sight with lenses of different degrees and we try to read some alphabets/numbers across the wall on the opposite side. I believe those who’ve been through eye checks know what I’m talking about. He concluded that I had a whooping leap of +75 degrees of astigmatism on my left eye. (75degrees is a lot, this is scary)

Next up, he brought me to another room, and I was told to rest my chin on this very sophisticated and pretty looking machine, where it had black/white strips on it. He typed in all my information, and subjected me to the test. It was the machine that determined my sentence. It measured the thickness of my cornea.

According to my optician, during LASIK operation, they have to scrape off some tissues on our cornea and if it doesn’t hit the minimum thickness (which is different for different degrees), LASIK operations are really really not advisable because they can never guarantee the success rate and complications after such risky cases.

And to my horror, my corneas were revealed to be really thin. A very lenient minimum requirement of ~0.48um and I only had ~4.77um.  my.heart.dropped.

I showed a strong front and smiled to him while he explained why I am not the best candidate for a LASIK operation. After which, he walked out of the room and explain everything to mommy again, for a second time. I was holding my tears.

He didn’t charge me for the check up as ‘I was already very disappointed’. Immediately outside the clinic while waiting for the lift, I broke into tears. WHY? Why me? WHY do I have to have such a thin cornea?

I think no one can understand how dejected, depressed, devastated and disappointed I was. (I felt that it was worst than a breakup, shit, do I sound too heartless?)

I went to the mall to choose a new pair of spectacles immediately. (How embarrassing, we had to meet a friend’s mom at the mall, when I had red and swollen eyes.) I think I made mommy a tad worried.

Talked to brother for a bit that night. He said I wouldn’t understand and I said the same, he wouldn’t understand why I am this upset. And told me its fine to wear spectacles. Thank you kor, I felt a little better.

Thank you friends, who commented after I penned down those depressing update of status on facebook/twitter. Thanks for the consoling me.

Think I need just a little time to get over the sadness. I might rant about this issue for awhile more, but I’m sure I’ll get over it.

You guys are sure wondering what a vain pot I am. Not to deny, everyone wants to look at their best, right? And like what the Chinese proverb says , there’s no ugly women in the world, there are only lazy women.

Oh, and if you’re going to suggest contact lenses to me, I have eye allergies caused by don’t-know-what. But definitely not contact lenses. So, long term on contact lenses is not a solution for me. (Yes, how pathetic I am right.) And I thought LASIK would solve my problem… now, my bubble of hope is burst, the fact that I have to be in spectacles for life. So currently I’m on dailies toric lenses which costs me a BOMB, and yeah, even if they cost a bomb, I can’t wear them everyday.

The thing about spectacles are that, they keep ‘dropping’ and sometimes half the eye’s out of the frame of the specs, especially when we sweat, and when we engage in sports. Then, comes the problem of an ugly reflection when taking photos. I LOVE TAKING PHOTOS, so ANYTHING THAT MAKES ME UGLY, I HATE. (I know they have what they call multi-coating lenses that do not reflect light but they don’t seem to work on me at all. Every single spectacles I have give me this problem.) Next, issues with make up, after dolling myself up with even very basic eyeliner and mascara, the mascara will taint my spectacles and blur my vision. More importantly I feel that all my make up goes to waste because they are covered up by spectacles, so whats the point of dolling myself up? I’ll never end all the woes about wearing spectacles lah..

an example of reflection on my spectacles.

this is already a very mild reflection. I wouldn’t bear to show you a bad one, and spoil my image. hehehe. :)

Also, the popularity of contact lenses have risen so much over the years that most of the people I know who used to wear spectacles are on contact lenses. If people don’t look better on contact lenses, who would pay for the hassle?

Sorry if you’re tired of my rantings.

I’m tired of the problems I have too. :(

Besides my eyes, my face are giving me problems also! WHY?? I tend to get red little spots like rashes on my face around my cheek bone area towards the end of the day, when the weather gets really hot. Why am I suffering from so many allergy reactions? And what on earth am I allergic to?

How depressed I am. Can you feel me?

i never wanted to be in spectacles.

Went somewhere special today! & I think it’ll be my first and my last time going there! It’s gonna be a photologg, soo.. sit back and enjoy!

Yesssss, I was on the sea..guess where was I heading to.

hahaha. d flaggg! D:

lovelove d skyy!! the clouds!

no need to tell me how chuiiiii i look! ><  oh and the wind was blowingggg, my fringe changed its direction! boo.

Yesyes, I went with my Momma and THIS group of friends. HAHAH, yes, I actually did that. :)

Jackpotttttt! Seriously, gambling is addictive. hehehehe. but nah, i’m not an addict! and lousy Momma, the photograph is so blurry!

hehehehe, Momma <3!

hehehehe, so i actually managed to enter d casino! :D

this was the casino ship i was on board! :0

hehehe!

:D chuiiiii~

Yay, i’m done for the photos part. Not very tedious actually, but i’m just plain lazy.

Woah, thinking back..I slept at 3am yesterday night, and woke up at 7.10am! As explained by the photos..yes, gotta get prepared for going out and left home around 8ish i think. Freaking tired yo! :( Gonna sleep after I’m done with this entry.

Felix was awesome today!! okay I admit he’s usually awesome when he’s in the right mood. hehehehe. My Compaq laptop is back! Mehmeh helped me with installation of all the necessities like Mozilla, Media playerrrr, MSN, etc.

and, best thing of all, he promised to help me change my theme! i’m too tired of this theme (not because of you mehmeh) because its too messy to manage. so yes, my blog’s face-lift wish has come true! woooo! can’t wait to see my new theme when its done.

With the media player installed at my compaq laptop, i got to watch two episodes of 心星的泪光 (Starlit). Starring Jerry Yan. He’s so charismatic and charming  inside, I like!! Finally got to watch because mehmeh had been watching the show during the course of my exams, and i got super, tempted.

(Momma reminded me of something today. it made my heart lighter. its what we call in chinese, 不幸中的大幸！ i’m glad. it kinda made me think too. yes, i should stop bothering. and today i did it.)

Alright, time to hit the sack! its been long since i head to bed before 1am. thanks to all d mugging. for now i’m spared.

AHAHAHHAHA, I just realised my keyboard is partly screwed!! my shift+2 (supposingly @) became “. and so the supposingly ” key became @!! whats wrong! hahahaha, did the wires in my keyboard mis-connect or smth, like how we always describe people whos a lil’ crazy. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

WTHELLZXZXZX right!! totally LOL!

yes, i’m blogging from my very own laptop! yay! but the thing is we’re actually not at our flat. okay okay. the explanation in the previous entry is actually my old flat. and now we’ve been shifted to another flat with just 2 rooms, so we have our own kitchen toilet and dining room! which is pretty cool, and PURRRRRFECT if we have internet there. but the thing is we’ve yet have our internet there, and we’re so gonna complain on monday. clever fella didn’t pick up my call this morning. so i couldn’t complain and i reckon he won’t be picking up any calls tmr too so yeah we’ll continue stealing internet from here until we get to complain to him! rah~!

today was shopping! all the things are soooo nice! except there are a tad too expensive for a student like me! i love those DC shoes..omg prettey…!!! they cost like 40-50pounds which will amount to 200+RM..argh. could only drool at those pretty shoes..haha! anyway we got quite some stuffs too! :D  10pounds or below only! could only look at those sales items rahh! heh. think i got quite a good deal, 10pounds for a winter-jacket.. just that its really dirty cos its white..

and yeah dundeeeee is soooo small! :( we practically walk through their city..shopped thru their 2 malls ard the city area..argh! need to find where to go tomorrow..=) bleah.

right..lots of words! PHOTOS NOW! :) gosh its rly hard to sort out the photos that are in triplets..argh

ENJOY~!

(PS: that snoopy is for Melissa! thats if you visit my site =P)

and that mirror reflection of me and D is the white jacket i bought for 10 pounds!!